Ever since I was in middle school, I have always been the kind of person that LOVES to be busy all the time. Every minute, every hour, every day of my life had to be filled with something to do, someplace to go, or someone to see. I loved being busy. It made me feel like I was living life to the fullest.
At the beginning of this school year (sophomore year), I was so excited about all the opportunities that I've been given at Butler University. I started to fill up my schedule. Between staff meetings, going to class, driving up to Carmel, planning programs, I barely had time to sleep! I began to get tired of all that I had to do, all the places that I had to be, people I had to see. Everything became a burden and responsibility instead of a joy and opportunity. It wasn't until then that I finally took a step back.
Stop. Breathe grace in, and breathe grace out.
I've been so fortunate to be a part of so many great things. I don't deserve to be here at Butler University. I don't deserve to be a Resident Assistant. I don't deserve to be a Young Life Leader at Carmel University. I don't deserve to serve at my home church Chinese Christian Mandarin Church. I don't deserve to be loved by the greatest family in the world. But somehow, I'm here. By GRACE.
It is by grace that I have a family who is here to support me. A mother who fervently prays for me. A father who will give up his time to solve any problem for me. A brother who plans time in his week to call me and ask me how I'm doing. A sister who listens patiently to the joys and troubles of my day.
It is by grace that I get to be a part of the best staff ever. We are all here because we passionately care for freshmen girls. We spend hours talking about our residents because we care for them with all our heart and will do anything for them to have the freshmen year at Butler.
It is by grace that I have been placed in Carmel High School as a Young Life leader. This team of leaders never cease to inspire me with their willingness to do anything and everything to love on high school kids.
It is by grace that I have such a wonderful home church, CCMC. They have taught me to love the Lord more and to serve Him with my whole life. Each time I go back to visit, I am blessed by how much joy we share together.
It is by grace that I have the sweetest unit in the world! I love living with them and hearing about the exciting things that go on in their lives. Even when it gets hard, I love being there to struggle through it together. I love the random laughter, screams, and craziness that goes on in unit 14 of Schwitzer Hall. I couldn't have asked for a better unit.
So sometimes it takes STOPPING. It's good not to be busy all the time. I am able to appreciate how enormous the grace I've received.
It is by grace that we get to have you so much in our lives! Remember this past summer that when Emeth talked about going home, he was talking about your house?
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